Can't Keep Up

It has been 2 months since I've moved to Bandung in order to continue my studies. I've cried a lot in these past 2 months. When I first came here, the reason I cried at first was because I missed my friends. I was disappointed by myself because I didn't spend much time w/ my friends. I mostly spent my time for studying. But then because every weekend I come home and meet my friends that disappointment fade away. Then came another problem. I felt so hard for leaving Jakarta. I thought at first that it was because I didn't want to leave my friends and my family. But now it just hit me and made me realize that my brain seems can't keep up with the studies. That other people around me are so frigging smart and made me think that I am the stupidest person in there. It is just that hard. I hate this feeling for giving up this early. But this is my dream. And I know that God would not even consider to put myself in the situation that I couldn't handle. That God wouldn't make me pass SNMPTN if I didn't have the brain and the spirit to get through this studies. But it is hard. It is that hard that I'm crying rite now. I just couldn't hold the tears anymore..