Black Diamond

feel like trapping in a jail without bars

let alone

tears ain't gonna stop

a single A won't come

no

much hatred

much love

is it?

does it?

was it?

has it?

do I?

do you?

through fingers touching tears

too precious

too perfect

ordinary it is

blue?

no

red

feeling seeing black

SBS & KBS Gayo DaeJun

Well, it's kinda late maybe for some recap of SBS Gayo DaeJun. Sorry about that, been busy this whole day. So, to make it up I'm gonna put both SBS & KBS Gayo DaeJun in here. For some of you that have read Deby's, for her it was a great breakfast but for me it was a great dinner. So to make things short, in my opinion -again in MY opinion, SBS is greater than KBS. KBS Gayo DaeJun was kinda boring, to formal maybe. KBS was not that -what word should I put? wild? It was just not that excited like SBS that could make your bulu kuduk merinding -hahahaha. Here is the recap:

1. SHINee performances -yes, I am a ShaWol if you haven't figured it out

KBS:

finally, I can watch the remix with Taemin's in it. I really hate for the fact that Minho was in the center and the cameraman liked Minho seriously -sorry Margaret, for once I really wanted to see Taemin dancing in this remix. Totally forgot to mention that Taemin's mic didn't work on stage. Poor Taeminnie.

SBS: Juliette (Acoustic Ver.)

I heart this acoustic version. In here you can see Key was grabbing Taemin's butt to wake him up -what a good way hahahaha Ring Ding Dong (Remix Ver.)

again, the cameran liked Minho, sigh. I prefer SBS than KBS in this case, since SBS included Juliette acoustic version and for the remix version, it was more energetic. Again, it is all just my only opinion.

2. MJ Tribute

KBS:

K.Will, Onew, Yesung, Kara - Heal The World

Don't mind with their Engrish, after all they were good. This is my favorite besides Nicole, Ryeowook - Ben, 4Minute - Billie Jean, 2PM - Dangerous, SNSD, BEG, Davichi - I'll be There, Kim Tae Woo, Jonghyun, Kim Jung Mo - Beat It, SNSD, Suju, SHINee - Smooth Criminal.

SBS:

Beast, MBLAQ - Dangerous

When these two rookie groups become one, they really have a great performance with such a-hell-of-team work. Other performances: 2PM - Thriller, Lee Seung Gi - Smooth Criminal, SuJu - Billie Jean, All - Beat It. They can't beat Beast & MBLAQ. Well, the youngs are, true, greater than the olds.

In this section I prefer KBS. I get enough with the whole dancing thingy without singing. Let's hear their voice!

3. Special Stage

KBS: Here, they have the KPop Group Dances Off

SHINee - Just Dance

Firstly, I was a bit speechless with Taemin's & Jonghyun's clothes but then I decided it is couture? Or clown's clothes? You decided yourself. Meanwhile, I like Taemin's hairstyle, made him a little bit man. About the dance, it was common. There was nothing that made me go 'WOW', ya know what I mean rite?

2PM - Boom Boom Pow

Well, I have some difficulty in choosing between 2PM or SuJu to put on here. They both did a great job. But I must say the lack of kompak-ness -excuse my English 'cause I know it's decreasing each day, SuJu had. Meanwhile, besides the tiredness that you can see clearly, Youngie, the santi boy, was showing his man side. You can see they rip their clothes -long time no see this kinda thing, rite? But, it was still coming across my mind... missing Jay.

Kara - Son of A Gun

Hara's bodywave made me chose them instead of SNSD.

SBS:

Where Boys Become Girls

2PM - Bo Peep Bo Peep

Due to 2PM, 2AM, Beast - Sign has been posted by Deby and the cameraman's stupidity in 2PM, Beast - Mister, so I picked 2PM - Bo Peep Bo Peep. Any other reasons? Yes. Junho's but hahahhahahaha and of course Youngie the santi boy.

There are videos that I don't put on here. If you know me, you'll know what it is and the reason behind it. It's all about my own guilty pleasure.

WonderGirls:

Kara, 4Minute, AfterSchool - Heartbeat

Though Deby has posted it, this one is an exception. Love Kahi in here.. and ofcourse the others. Forget about Uee's slippness. 4 thumbs up for them!

Well, guess you know the answer already. Between SBS and KBS? Should I answer and explain it? Na ah...

4. Other Performances

KBS:

BEG - Abracadabra

Totally different from yesterday.

Son Dam Bi, JYP - Bomb Bomb Bomb

Watch and judge yourself..

Well, there were 2PM - Heartbeat and also SuJu - Sorry Sorry, but both were just ordinary. Oh and there was Kara but N.O AfterSchool.

SBS:

BEG ft 2AM - Sign

Dot dot dot dot dot... Loving Jo Kwon & Ga In. They're such a lovely dovely couple.

2PM - AAA & Tired of Waiting

Their outfit is so-oh-Nutcracker. A great great great great great performance. For the Tired of Waiting, it was kinda shocked me when they just wore jeans, white t-shirts and jacket, it was gooood after all. Love how they played their fingers.

SuJu - Sorry Sorry, SuJu, SNSD - It's You Ending

With so-oh-classy-white-suits, they were just that GREAT. I miss seeing their stage performance, Hyukkie's chestpopping, It's You, Sorry Sorry... I just miss them. And they did with full power and such details, that is why I can not not to put these videos in here.

SBS or KBS? OF COURSE IT IS SBS, DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!

5. What is That KBS Didn't Have But SBS Have It?

2PM's Parody - You're Beautiful

Youngie as Go Mi Nam, Khunnie as TK, and the rest? I can't really tell who is who. So much love between Youngie and Khunnie. What else? Arghh, seriously there are just too much to tell. You just need to watch it yourself, okay? I give it all to you...

So, that is all th recap of SBS and KBS Gayo DaeJun. Really can't wait to watch MBC Gayo DaeJun tonight. Will MBC be better than SBS? We'll see in about 12 hours.

Credits: WeRShining02, monmonsnowHD, CodeMonmonVid, jasoncoolv3, allKPop, and of course YouTube. Words can not show my thankful to all of you. I can do nothing without all you.

Officially Missing Jay

I just realized how I am missing Jay so much. Since 2PM comeback with Heartbeat promotion, I've never that much put my attention to watch their performances. I thought at first it was because the song that didn't 'click' to me. Hard to believe that it is because it is just not 2PM with out Jay. I knoooow, maybe some of you are already sick with 'the missing Jay' but it is true that their performances will never be the-so-oh-amazing-performance-like-the-old-days without Jay. Admit it people. I know that they have been working their asses off to give their best to us, to not letting Jay down, even everytime they win lots of award they're keep shouting Jay's name, their one and only leader. Just don't get me wrong. I'm just missing Jay after watching their AAA performance in SBS Gayo DaeJun.

Christmas Gift

Okay, for some of you that have read my 'Condition' you must have known what I want for this Christmas. All I want for this Christmas is the coming back of my oh-so-corrupted SHINee's pictures. It is so simple. I really don't min

d if I don't get a new pair of heels, clothes or whatever things that so-oh-frigging-expensive that I wanted. I want my SHINee's pictures to come back to me. Is it that hard? Is it that expensive that all of them can not come back to where they belong? Or wait, don't they belong to me? Am I that desperate? Y.E.S! If I can't get back my SHINee's picture, I'm planning to go hunting those pictures. I know it will spend a whole day, but well, I don't mind. If there's a will, there are wayssssssssssss. So, to celebrate the pictures that I could rescue and the program could bring them back to me, I'll give you some of the pictures. Hopefully you will like it.

Condition

okay, so I know I am a frigging reckless girl. So, yeah I deleted A FOLDER THAT 100% I BELIEVE CONTAINED A VIRUS so then my other folders, 2PM/Jo Ji Hoon/Lee Dong Wook, are gone. What about my SHINee folder? Well, I could rescue like 20ish pictures of Taemin -I thanked God for that- from 150ish minho's pictures, 120ish SHINee's pictures, 7ish Key's pictures, 5ish Onew's pictures, 20ish SHINee's couples, and the worst of all? 255ish Taemin's picture. I was like dying for a half of hour. Can you imagine that? All of your pictures that you have collected since 6 or 7 months ago are gone withing a sec? CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT?! But me knowing that there must have been a program that can recover the deleted files, w/ shift+delete fyi, and VOILA.. I found them. You may ask if it does work or not. Yes, it DOES work. The program can find my 526files. See the number, I know that the program doesn't find all my deleted files, but it's okay. At least I have more than half of my pictures back. But, there are also some files that come back but are corrupted. I still haven't figured it out yet how to recover the files, well I know how to do it but I have no time to do it now. I will work it out when I come back from my holidays. I'm going to take holidays for 4 days from now, be back at Saturday in the afternoon -if I'm correct. It's already 1:42 AM and my flight is on 7AM, but I'm tottaly not sleepy right now that is why I decided blogging right now. Hmmm, what else I shall say in here? Oh, today is Christmas Eve, thus that I'm taking my holidays so I'm going to say:

HAVE A MERRY MERRY MERRY MERY MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE! GOD BLESS YOU!

So, that's it. See you again on Saturday :)

One of a Kind 'Key'

It's an interview from Dazed and Confused Magazine. I was taken a back reading this interview. I just don't believe that Key is just a year older than me. He ain't a boy. He is a man. I admire him... for being so different then the others.

★Key★

"I can't hide who I am. I can't say things I don't mean, say that I like things I hate, or hate things I like. And more than anything, I can't lie to myself."

Q: You are the first celebrity who thoroughly remembers the models in the latest "Dazed and Confused" issue. You must be particularly interested in fashion.

A: If you ask me what I like, #1 is music and #2 is fashion. Truthfully, I only got interested in fashion after becoming a singer. After seeing Ha Sang Baek's styling, I thought "Where did these cool clothes come from? I don't see it in Myungdong or in department stores."

Q: Do you have thoughts of studying fashion officially?

A: I've thought about studying abroad. I also have thoughts of being in the fashion business, maybe as a fashion magazine editor. I did art as a kid, and my child dream was to become a painter.

Q: If you were a fashion magazine editor what kind of photoshoot or article would you want?

A: Something very experimental, independent of luxury brands or societal myths that gives off a visual effect of freedom...that's what I'd...want to make! (laugh) That's what I'd say when I don't know anything.

Q: Ah, does that mean you know more now!

A: Well, each magazine needs to abide by their own concept and there might be censoring by the publication company. But then again they're all professionals, they would've done it even if they couldn't.

Q: I've heard you were pro at water skiing before debuting.

A: I was a 'pro'...but there weren't that many kids so anyone who participated was pretty much a pro. Water skiers in one area made up only about 3 people?

Q: If you're from Daegu you were probably raised under conservative parents. How are you?

A: My dad is very conservative. I really liked singing and dancing as a kid but only did it in my room alone. But in 8th grade I told my parents that I wanted to legitimately be a singer and my dad was shocked and said, "There's no way a well-mannered, quiet kid like you can become a celebrity!" (laugh)

Q: Do reporters ask you your ideal type in every interview?

A: Many people ask. But I'd probably be curious too. Ah, and a lot of people ask about my new hairstyle with this album concept.

Q: So I think I'll be different and remove all the hairstyle questions, then. But I'm still curious about your ideal type.

A: Your difference. I like it. (laugh) My ideal type is Chloe Sevigny.

Q: Chloe Sevigny? You're the first person I know of your age who chooses such a "chic" fashion icon for an ideal type. Of course, fashionistas are different.

A: I think Chloe Sevigny is really cool so I even contemplated buying a shirt with her photograph but...it was a shirt with her nude! (seriously dissatisfied face) Then I can't wear it!

Must've been this:

Q: Chloe Sevigny is not a typical pretty face so she's not very popular among men here.

A: I think girls with style are more beautiful than ones with a pretty face. Small face, skinny, double eyelids...if guys keep going after that plain look, every girl's face might look the same. It'd be a scary day.

Q: Your character seems extraordinary in many ways. How would you characterize yourself in words?

A: I can't hide who I am. I can't say things I don't mean, say that I like things I hate, or hate things I like. And more than anything, I can't lie to myself. And in a moment of disappoint I can't make excuses to make up for my behavior...

Q: People who are the strictest and harshest to themselves aren't very shaken by criticism from other people.

A: I try to hear bad, bitter things about myself in a better, sweeter light. I always repeatedly ask in case I forget. But I don't consider looks or anything I can't change to be a bad thing about myself. So rather than dwelling upon things I can't change, I'd rather develop the good things about me. So my dream isn't to become the "best", it's to be someone who I'm not ashamed to be. Not that I don't want to become the best (laugh). For everyone who wants to become the best, second place would be considered failing. Since the best can always only be one person.

Interviewer: Sorry, but is he really a 91er? People in their 10s don't usually think this maturely...

credit: shineee.net

source: shakizi | translated by: filmsession @ omona_prection

Deserve Nothing

so yeah I've got my rapor in my bag right now. im taking back my words that i didnt care about my scores. I AM FRIGGING CARE ABOUT MY FRIGGING SCORE. I FEEL SO DUMB RIGHT NOW. I even hate looking at my scores. Yes, i am, indeed, a very competitive person. Looking at my scores I know I deserve neither new clothes nor new shoes that I want. But this frigging emotion made me even want to buy them so badly. I promise to myself, I am going to study harder in the next term. Watch out people, Diane is back!

December

ck ck ck my last post was in October, and now December has come. what? is it like 2-3 months? wiiiiiiii too busy to bloggin i guess. anyway, there is no story to be told. hmmmmmmmm, guess my english skill is decreasing as the time goes by. like seriously. mabe i should bloggin everyday to improve my english. writing everything that happen in one day? today is rapor time (see! my english is sooooo damn poor). honestly, i dont even care about it anymore. i am more focusing on USM ITB right now. hmm, have no words to say anymore. so, that's it for today. see you tomorrow. or maybe midnight tonight? see yaaa..